quietly left. She didn’t remember how she got home. As soon as the door to her room closed, Bagel burst into tears. And the more she cried, the more bitter despair rang in her. Never before had she been so confused and weak. Malika was also crying: Without even asking what happened, as soon as Bagila threw herself on the bed, she burst into tears. Fearing that Sargel, sensitive as a magpie, might suspect something, Bagila found the strength to stop crying and lay down in bed, hoping to forget herself in a dream. The anger and despair subsided; she began to think calmly, soberly. And immediately Jasyn appeared before her eyes. “He was left alone there,” thought Bagila. “All alone. Or maybe he’s all alone in life? Do not strive for knowledge – you will lose all your friends… Why did he say that? To whom? To me? What if he was talking about himself? God, how difficult it is for him. And to forget him… It’s doubly difficult! How ruthless he is…! It can’t be. Such people understand grief and know how to sym- pathise. A thinking person cannot be heartless. Or does he want to get rid of me? Who knows, he is tormented by a multitude of thoughts entangled with each other in contradictions. It’s much harder for him than for me. A little harder. But what am I to do…? Where will he take me? After all, it’s impossible, having lost your head, to follow him, I still don’t know what he wants? Of course, he is special, not like others, he thinks, speaks differently than everyone else, but do I need such a life? Indeed, in fact, it may turn out to be alien and incomprehensible to me… I have my own life, my own ideas about it. Next to me live relatives, close ones, they love me, and I love them, in this life of mine, my parents, sisters. Let me think and live not as significantly as he does, but so what? This does not mean that I have to give up everything. But where will this ship take me? How will everything go on? Will I stay with him, or will I have to go back? Can I return on my own? What to do? Swim or get off? I must solve this, and quickly, this ship is moving away from
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